all i want to do is dance like there's no tomorrow!

the dance recital yesterday went great! it was so awesome to be onstage again. and be backstage again just messing around. it's been a really long time since i've done that. i'm so glad i decided to do this recital this year.

also i now have a bunch of uncharacteristic articles of clothing in my closet from the recital. leggings are so not my thing. haha.

i'm now approaching end of the month freak out again. it's almost may! when the hell did i get here? it's almost the end of the semester. crap.

this freak out is having almost no impact on my ability to do work of course. and the recital did not help. i'm in a very dance place right now. i cant be bothered with homework.

something's getting in the way, something's just about to break, i will try to find my place

so i just made my traditional end of the semester list of how many classes i have left. here's how it looks:

Business Law: 3
Macroeconomics: 3
Accounting: 2
Marketing: 1

usually i when i make this list i have around 8 for some of them. i think i made this list so late this time cause i'm really not looking forward to leaving school. i'd rather not countdown cause it stresses me out. and i was right, this list is stressing me out. but i had to do it, it's tradition.

on a completely different note, the dance club's recital is this sunday. i'm pretty excited about it. i havent done any sort of performance since high school. i severely miss it. is that weird? i find myself asking that question about myself a lot lately.

also, family vacation is set to disney world for the summer. with the G family. we havent taken a vacation with them since i was 15. i'm both excited and a little worried about how things will go. i guess i'll just have to wait and see.

earth to katie's mind: you've fallen off our radar, where did you go?

my mind is all over the place lately. i have an accounting project due tonight and not only do i have no idea what exactly i'm supposed to do (powerpoint, paper, etc) but i left it until the last minute. yesterday i decided to catch up on reading instead of doing this project. that reading was totally not as important. i mean it could be worse, at least i didnt just stare into space. but still.

i think i finished it (i hope it's what she is looking for, otherwise i'm screwed) but i finished it in just enough time not to watch the doctor who easter special that i completely forgot about. it aired on SATURDAY. it's THURSDAY. what the hell is wrong with me? where has my mind gone? doctor who is like seriously one of the most important things in my life. does that sound pathetic? whatever, i'm ok with it.

hopefully i get a chance to watch it tonight or i will be royally pissed.

i could sit here and recount all of the times where i've wondered where my mind has gone lately but i'd rather not. i'd probably lose focus at some point.

i just cant focus on anything for long periods of time anymore. and we're getting down to crunch time. i'm in some serious shit for finals.

in bed asleep while they do dream things true

i dont know what it is about the end of the month now that really scares me, but lately the last day of the month has both terrified me and stressed me out. i used to think it was because i was one month closer to the end of sophomore year and i was still undeclared. but now that i'm declared i think it's just the end of sophomore year in general that's stressing me out.

the end of sophomore year marks the half-way point in my college career and it's flying by faster than i thought possible. i feel like the beginning of freshman year was last week. how is it that i'm almost halfway done with college already? it's unbelievable. i feel like my life is going by too fast for me to do anything with it.

also, the fact that this summer is a vague and undetermined mess does not make me feel any better about the end of the semester.

when does life slow down?